Disappintments can feel like failure...

As you all know, I've been working out, eating healthy and generally trying to change my lifestyle for about six months now. I may have missed a day at the gym here and there (or in some cases a week...) but I feel as though I've made a valiant effort. I completed the 30 Shred with Jillian Michaels with the help of K and I've been overall proud of the things I've done. Imagine my disappointment when I weigh in after all is said and done and I'm still at 225. My clothes don't fit any more loosely and my reflection looks the same to me.

I brought this up to my Dr at my last appointment and he told me it's the PCOS. (I was diagnosed with this endocrine disorder when we were trying to conceive Noah.) Many women with PCOS struggle very much with their weight and most find it extremely difficult to lose it. For some it is virtually impossible. So while I have been doing good for my body in many other ways, my weight is hanging on for dear life. It's discouraging to say the least. I am happy that I've taken the initiative to becoming more fit in general and I have to say I came to love working out. It made me feel awesome. So I'm going to try and continue that aspect of everything.

The Dr put me back onto metformin (I was on this while TTC as well) to help control the PCOS and see if I can lose weight that way. I am hopeful since I lost quite a bit the first time I was on it and I was even pregnant for a few months. Unfortunately I can't remain on the medication for life, not that I would really want to but I don't know how it's going to go when I have to stop taking it. He said he would allow me to take it for 6 months to try and get down to my goal weight and then take me off and see if I can at least maintain without it. So here goes. I've been on it two weeks now but just got the dosage up to full strength a couple days ago. I had forgotten how much I didn't enjoy this part. I feel sick all the time, I can't eat anything with sugar without feeling nauseous. Anything remotely unhealthy means I can't eat much the rest of the day. (Without throwing up) It's a blessing and a curse. :)

All of these side effects pass with time though and then it just does it's job with my insulin levels and I feel much better. I think. I did get pregnant last time so I don't know how it will go with no baby in the belly. Anyway, here is me trying to get it right. Again. Wish me luck and check on me often. Hopefully it'll be more exciting this time around.

30 Day Shred!

So K and I have been doing the 30 Day Shred with Jillian Michaels from the biggest loser. It's been a rough five days so far! I think today was the first time since I started that I didn't look like a gimp walking home from K's house. It's killing me but I'm loving it. I've decided I HATE Jillian but she knows her stuff. So in 30 days we'll see if it was all worth it. I also love doing it with K at her house because it means I have to get up in the morning and go. Someone is expecting me.

AZ was in town with me this weekend and we hit up Zumba Friday night as well so I got in 90 minutes that day. Saturday was rough for standing up and sitting down. My legs have never hurt so much.

I'll keep it up until early March and then weigh in to see what the verdict is. I probably won't check in here everyday, maybe just once a week or so. As of now, I'm still at 225. Wish me luck!

Feeling pretty great!

So I've been doing great with my "diet" and Alli. I haven't weighed in again, I'm a little nervous to do it. But I found this great new Website, courtesy of M and N! It's myfitnesspal.com and it's a free calorie counter, exercise tracker, and food diary. I LOVE it! It's great for what I need and if you're also trying to be fit, you should check it out.

I did 25 minutes on the Wii fit today and I'm pretty proud of myself!

Wahoooo!

I finally did it! I lost 5 pounds! I'm down to 225. Hooray hooray hooray! I'm sorry, I'm feeling awesome about it and I wanted you to know. :) I mean 5 pounds is 5 pounds! Next it's 10.

Anyway, back to my regular updates. I went Thursday to the gym and then got sick. So I didn't go to zumba Friday. I'm wanting to get back to going more regularly (I know, I already said this but I mean it!) so I've decided on a new plan of action. When Ryan opens (off at 6ish) I'll go as soon as he gets home. If I'm off on a day he closes (works at 1), I'll go in the morning. The 1030 and 11 wasn't working well for me and I burnt out way too quickly with so little sleep. So here we go again.

I want to try doing the Wii fit again and I hear there is a pretty awesome Zumba for Wii that I want to look into.

With the Alli already helping out as much as it is, I think I can get the jump start I need. I'm also joining Weight Watchers. I've heard nothing but good things about it and I think I could really use the tools and information they have. I'll let you know when I do that...

In the meantime if anyone wanted to send me healthy recipes, I'd love some ideas... tiphanie_sams@live.com

Thanks for the support! Hooray for being 5 pounds thinner!!!

Weight this week: 225

New Year!

I don't remember if I posted about the last time I went to the gym or not. But I've been once in the last three weeks. It's very disheartening and I have been lacking the motivation to get back into it. I did get new gym clothes for Christmas and that has helped, I have wanted to go but it's been hard to find the time.

This week I've started doing Alli again. I did it a few years ago and it worked very well for me. That has given me the edge I need to start going back to the gym. I don't want to spend the money and then fail because I didn't get my butt to the gym. I'll be heading back Wednesday evening and I'm very looking forward to it.

So, I need your help the next couple weeks to keep me going. I need to have someone to answer to if I don't make it Wednesday and to zumba on Friday.

Weight this week: 230